Wow...the last time I have written in what was my only release...its been two years. Over two years.

Life is so scary at times. You think you've found the one, you think that you have your future planned about, you think that what you have is different. And then one day it all becomes clear...You have no idea what your talking about, you have no idea what you want, you have no idea how to fix your once healthy relationship. Your hanging by a thread and you refuse to walk away. At what point is giving up your morals or standards for the love of your life the right decision. Am I too hard on my expectations, do I want to become like every other person and accept flaws over time because I im scared to give up the love I hold for him. If that person really is the one for me, why would it matter if were both thrown back into society single..wouldn't that love bring us back together? The love that once claimed they were the only person for me...

fuck if i know.