I feel wierd, like, freaky. I don't know, I don't talk as much, except with certain peple recently, like, Micael I talk to a lot. Reyna a lil, I didn't really talk to Brandon or Pete, I can talk to Jordi, I didn't get a lotta chances to talk to Lindsay, but theres a reason, but I think this weekend I'm just gonna be like "fuck it" and go hang out with everyone. It'll be sick. I'm trying to get Jake and Reyna and Matt and them, or maybe like Erin and other people. OOh, I'm gonna try to hang with Michael and Cody again, that shit was fun. ok, next subject, I relly feel te whole older brother thing for a lotta people. I let most people I know do what they want and not get in the way, but like certain people i feel like I absolutely have to protect. It's not like, I like them more, I just worry a lot, cuz I love them, but sometimes, I just go crazy,like I have to be there, or when someone says something, like to them, I feel like, "fucker that better not be mean". That feeling. Good God I'm dumb. Maybe my feelins are just hurt to bad to where my brain needs to come back. From it's vacation, because it's been on fire. Man, my friend told me something on the DL, and my God, it reminded me of Kirk and Lyndsey and it was such a wakeup call, I went and just fucking went crazy. Like dude, I was super pissed, and super sad, like, verge of killing some wood, to DEATH, and crying, it suckeddd. So yeah, I've like cryed twice in so long, so three. Gay. So yeah, next year I'll probably cry once, so I'll save it for gradguation, maybe. Well it's the only way I know so if it's too much, then it's not gonna me much at all, fuck it. PEACE OUT