Enya, Slipknot, Self Mutilation

I'll start with a quote i like:

"Body art is controlled self mutilation".

Unlike the others who say it, i actually meant it. "Trust me, it's not worth it". I know this. I'm not fucking retarded, thank you. Your words of reassurance are misdirected; anybody speaking this must first come to terms with it themselves, before they can speak to other people about it.

"Yeah, i tried it once, it was stupid. I don't understand why someone would do that to themselves".

Then find out, before you criticise. It's not as easy to pass through as you may like to think.

Sitting, staring blankly at the blade, gently twisting the handle, enough to make a pinprick mark. Considering, what's it like?This is nothing similar.

Routinely slicing your body without explanation. This is shameful, and creates the stereotype of the "goth cutter".

Breaking down and crying. Feeling lost in anguish and despair. Searching for all methods of escape. Seeking counselling, medication, any other form of help. Last resort. That is what it's about.

I doubt this has enough coherancy to mean anything to anybody.

Read 17 comments
thanks chris. you stated in your entry that "i'm not fucking retarded." oh well...
umm, i guess my friends list is significantly larger than what it origionally was, yeah. btw, didn't yu have a third diary?
It may be rather suprising, but that entry actualy ment something to me. Maybe i'm just werid...

Joanna XxX
wow thats like soooooo true
wooo your hairs way longer than mine lol!!! isnt that always the case with kids and michael?? lol yer the narcotic thrust lol not thrusting Mr JOker... me too i kinda wear what i want dont like being pigeonholed already feel like im being suffocated by society without TRYING TO FEEL LIKE I BELONG
[Anonymous]
that's kinda harsh, i do feel bad now though... and i do appreciate her letting me stay over all the time and stuff... btw, the pic at the bottom looks a little more like an old lady...
Pictures! Wheee!

[Anonymous]
lol come here you'll feel right at home lolrandom ppl shouting random things its cool at times but sometimes it makes me feel like im going crazy ohhh maybe i am??!!
[Anonymous]
lol thats funni!!!

well i shaved my head like a year ago when i was going "trough a femininst i am a lesbian phase" its up to my shoulders now but each individual persons hair grows at diff lengths lol oh i like that narcotic thrust song shhh dont tell any1 lol x
[Anonymous]
do i leave rubbish lying around? yeah, the talkin clock one seems kinda plain now... why?
*LICKS YOUR SANITY***
[Anonymous]
lol full of losers and ppl with turettes lol to be really honest and impartial i have to say its fucking shyte lol oh i love happiness jus omebody smiling makes me smile hmm i wish i could jus smile my way through reality.......
[Anonymous]
form boring scotland, central england great definition lol.... i it raining own there? man i love england but there are so many pillocks there that i personally know i guess i just seem to attract them arrgh!!!!!!! :0)
[Anonymous]
not even al little retarded? and you say monkey likka like it's a bad thing... what do you think of colorblind?
I hear you!!!!
na thats ok i liked the way you said it was cute lol!!yep angelina jolie is way sexy your cheering me up your good for me lol xx where you from x
[Anonymous]
yer i know i used to self mutilate did for 8 years but i got pu in hospital had to stop! dont feel the need now iv learned to cope but sometimes i still have the urge y'know it sucks lifes a bitch and the people that brought me into this world dont really give a shit BASTARDS i like your journal xx
[Anonymous]
mmmmm i'm liking the licking hehe :p xx
[Anonymous]