this may very well be my first entry, in recent manys, where i am happyish. i admit that i was happier earlier, smelling like bon fire, and riding on the bus with the other boy, the other boy's brother, and athena. but now, as i sit in this house i just feel contentish. currently my left shoulder is feeling an ache, but it's something i am becoming used to and the ache seems a slight comfort that's telling me i'm not perfect. this i know and this i understand. the moments today were swell. the moments i wont get into because i'm sure you dont care because you dont know who i'm speaking about. so why would you care about people you dont know? anyways...most of this day was swell. most of tomorrow i'm not looking forward to: -i dont wish to go to practice at 5:30 AM -i dont wish to talk to fel about our "level four argument" (yea he made up levels of our arguments...what...the...fuck) -i dont wish to go to any class because i dont enjoy ANY of them. well, english is good, so scracth that, i dont wish to go to any class but english because the rest are terribly horrific. -i dont wish to see omnifriend because i was very very mean to her today and i spit on her face when i pinned her down and i didnt hug her "hello," she is upset at me, i feel anger toward her, but i always do. that's all i can currently think of. frosted mini weats should have frosting on both sides you know. goodnight slightly starry sky. -amanda