you pick up so much shit it's revolting. last night was obnoxious, so was that Robot movie. i just dont find myself enjoying it. and so i'm sitting on the floor, just knowing something isnt correct. yea, i start my period in the middle of the good movie. oooh i'm alright. really. hah. it's ok, because i'm surviving, the main thing is, i need you to miss me. like she said, a "pride" thing. i guess i have too much of it. but i dont want to give you shit for having a girlfriend. that's what people do, they fall in "love" with someone and the best friend has to just step aside until you're ready for them. so that's what i'm doing. i know. tomorrow i wont be as calm and collected. i wont be so understanding. but now that there's proof my emotional self is just under raging hormones then i can calm down a bit. too much information? probably. -amanda i miss katie.