I wouldnt say that it's brilliant, but I feel deep inside a positive feeling and smiles twisting in and out. Smiles that don't, I don't, release. Maybe I say smile for lack of a better word. Maybe... Giddy, yes, giddy inside. It is an amazing feeling that rarely occurs for me, much less my whole body. I enjoy occasions when my parents are not in town. I feel released from Father Anger and until they return I'm Free. Something remarkable, that I'm sure only I would feel is remarkable happens. The reflected lights of the cars, red and white, slide back in forth on the glass. My eyes watch them as the music lulls me to sleep. That half sleep that caresses you. My car warm and both of us silent. He leans against the opposite door and the lights of the park flicker and turn off. I curl up on the carpeted floor and fall asleep. His house warm and I feel him lay the blanket on me. Waking up is Different and New. Different and New, the smiles keep dancing in. -amanda