woke up this morning on the couch to my alarm telling me to take my pill. i trudged upstairs, took the pill, peed, and fell into my bed. i feel bad for not walking colty to the door last night, but i was so exhausted. i think he didn't mind. i'm sick of the sims not working on my computer. sometimes i just want to control some lives, even if it is only on a simulation computer game. thanksgiving is coming up, i'm definitely excited for the food. as i get older, all the traditions seem to fade... we don't seem to spend as much time with the millers anymore. that's alright, i mean, everyone's busy; i just miss that. went to new moon last night with janelle and cort, it was good times had by all. is it bad of me to wish colty had the back and shoulders that jacob does? for some reason, those parts on a male body (or any body?) are ridiculously attractive to me. and believe me, colty has an attractive back and shoulders but i don't know. the way jacob's muscles rippled attracted me more than muscles ever do or have. i don't really care, though, i love colty's body. it's so warm and cuddly. he's my teddy bear. (: i need to take more pictures with my camera. i just don't know what to take pictures of. hmm. i miss my dear canon. i really just want colty to wake up and call me. but i'll be patient.