i dont know myself so it is kind of hard when you asked me about myself i get disapoint because i cant tell you when i dont know myself. i use to once think i was a balarina ice skating in a arena in front of million woking fantasitc and grace full. i once was a day dreamer i would i would sit in front of the tv when i was little and smile when the charicters did they would laught at me and say i was in my own little room thinking i was not listening but i was i heard it all they were may family but yet strangers little kids of some sort. i once thought i was a singer i would like any other girl sing with a bunch of students in a group in front of people in a small place and i would wish that wish that i was that girl singing the chours that is spepert fromt he rest and in sit to everyone in that room and projecting her beautiful voice to the crowd but then i didnt wish i knew i was not like the rest and now i see that i was right. i never grow up i didnt grow up at all i started as a adult i will finsh as one. i never really had anyone i would just sit by myself and listen to those word they will say to me. they share did say alot they do it alot like any other really kid would they try to hurt make someone feel useless like they did me i wish i could of did something know be stong stand up show them they didnt hurt me. i never talked to my family i still dont i just now sit in front of a diffrent screen a interact with that atmosphere.i if i could i would walk around the old with my earphones on my ear listening to to someone sing melodies of there memories and feeling and try to find some connect to mine but like i said im not like everyone else in diffrent i can only find a connection with my own meliodes of my memories. i now think im an artist i wonder how long this will last i worry that it ill fade and then i will not think im anyone i will not have anything. im ready to leave im grown up and i have tookin care of myself all along i didnt really go to anyone for advise i didnt need to when i could help my self... i was reading the comment teddy left me and a smile apperd on my face the tears not sad tear my happy one i knew right then i was truly in love. i cryed because i have two people that care and that a new thing to me. they are the only two i want in my life i can do with out anyone in this world but not them two they are it they are my family. p.s i did have with writen once but my computer froz and i lost it so this is a short verson of what i wrote and not all of it cus i can remember the rest fucking shit i hate with computer