damn it i think about what i just said it was fucking mean i cant belive i said the things i said. im so fucking stupid. i know what i said was wrong the way i said it. why do i fuck things up why do i think im feeling one thing and the really thing was i was not feeling it at all. i should of talk to him more about it. worked things out before i desided i need time off. he is having such i bad time right now and i had to go and make things worse for him. i dont know anything anymore do i love him? was it because he was the first to show really feelings for me? most of all WHO THE FUCK IM!! IM SORRY WILLIAM please to not hurt i me saying that will not make a diffrence. this is how life is to work i will get throw this and it will make me stronger i wish i was a little kid again so feeling bad wouldnt feel so bad