ive been throwin up for 1/2 an hour. its killingme.. im making myself sick... im sorry.. i wanna take my own life... i know i caqn do it.. butt i dont want to miss out on being with sarah and joe.. im gonna call him at nine bc thats when he has free minutes. he thinks i dont love him butt i do.. i love him soo much... he doesnt understamd it. he cant see my pain because i wont let him. i know that... i dont know what to do... i want answers im tired of crying myslef to slepp everynight... im tired of having drink and pop pills jsut to fall asleeep and mahe the pain go away for just a moment.. ya i laugh.. i joke... butt i cant remember it.. bc by the end of the day.. a frown is all i seee... all i feel... im worn out... i just wanna go away.... im leaving in 2weeks so i wont be writing.. sorrry... i nkow that you just wanna hear me sob story.. *sarcastic*... thats ok because when im gona all that will b left is mi writing... i'm not good at talking.. i live my life in my journals.. mi writing.. they hold the real me... the me i want pppl to know and one day they will... one day you'll read about mi life...