so last night... i was crying to joe and he was tearing.. we decided to sleep on it.. i didint sleep much...so today... im still with him.. i cant loose him and he said he wont b running to kristina anymore and that made me happi. i know theyre friends.. and i told him id break up with him so he can b with her.. buttt he dont... i think this time things are gonna b different... hes in newbirg or newburry whateva.. he used ta live there.. he went back for a visit... i think he missed his "parties:fun times" it kinda gets to me... i dont really so BIG drugs... and he.... i duunno i hung up on him for it.. and i felt bad, and he called me back and everything.. so its all good. im still kinda upset with kristina butt she is my friend... soo.. im gonna loose weigth.. for my vacation in 2 weeks and im bandaged up and hopefully ill heal and b able to not wear sweatshirts and baggy pants the whole time.. bc my parents are gonna b with me. im gonna go to wisconsin to mi half sis. i probably told you that already.im sure i did.. i feel all deva vu.. i dunno. i dont know a lot of things.. nick still freaks me out and last night he called.. when me daddy comes home.. he's gonna have to do something about it. i judt cant wait to leave. im taking mi babi sarah. butt now instead of a resort mi parents want to jsut drive out there and find someplace.. im gonna see if i can talk mi daddy out of it.. *hehe* i think i can. im daddy's lit'l girl.