so.. i saw dr.nezezon and he gave me some breathing tips and stuff... i saw mi councelor again and she says i need medication to help calm me and stuff.. she says i need somethin to do... i have no time to even wrtie here... im busy 24/7 i sleep on the bus on the way to school. i work out everynight.... i work on the weekends.... come on now...butt whateva... im kinda jelous butt im kinda not.. kristina and cory are "datin" butt yet he still tells me that he's so stupid for giving me to mike... bc now that he thinks aobut it... he wasnts me back and all this stuff... butt i didint tel her that. ill let her make her own mistakes...i dunno what to do about joe... i jsut wanna change my life.. change where i live... everything..butt i cant.. and i know that, thats the problem... i dunno. nick is out of my life.. his memories will always stay with me... no mater how much he's hurt me....