im exhausted.. take ing care of teh hosue and being "mom" is harder then i thought butt im gonna do it... i can do it i know i can. so tomorrow im going to te drs. and to the library.. i hope to meet up with mike. i miss him soo much.. seriously... what bothers me is his age... i wish i could bring him home to mom butt he's too old and it sux. i wanna move in with him... butt im just dreaming... seriously... so i went to counciling today and tlaked.. i had mi momtalk to mi theRAPIST she's gonna do counciling bc she has a drinking problem and an anger problem... both mi parents do.. i cant wait to move out in 10 months,....its all good... nick and i are talking again.. once and i while... its weird.. i can say that im ova him... butt i still hurt inside... joe is finally talking to me*yay* but i think he wants me to go out with him.. and i dont wanna hurt anyonhe so im trying to avoid the question if you know what i mean... hehe... ya im depressed butt i deal with it... its ok.. mi panmic attacks i can handle... i wrote mike a note about mi life... see what he thnks,,, matt keeps askin me out butti kind of like him butt id rather us be friends... same with joe... i havnet been single in a year and i half... its weird.. i have noonw to call at night.... oh well.. it s all good... i cant wait til friday.. hehehehehehehehehehehehe