Sigh. Well, that was a nice little outburst in my last entry. Sorry for all of that. Its just always the same thing with my life. Im always being one upped by the people around me, and it just sucks the most when #1 you want it bad and #2 the people are close to you. But Im feeling a little bit better. Well, not much, but a little. Oh well. Im just going to be the best damn choir girl that shes ever had, and she'll wish she had given me a better part. Too bad I didnt get into this play stuff earlier, but Im thinkin that Ima try out for this show choir thing. If I start to get better at singing (just by doing it more, since its been awhile) and all that, I could always pursue it in different ways. This school play isnt the last opportunity Ill ever have, if I dont want it to be. Well, Ima go chill with Josh for awhile. And boy do I need it! Dreaming of what could be, and if Id end up happy. I would pray.