Sigh. I feel like such crap today. Nothing is working out anymore! Why is this happening to me? I am such a nice person. ((Which to some may be debatable, but I know that I am.)) I never get to see Josh. Okay well, I see him everyday at school, but that is not the kind of limited interaction I prefer to have with the love of my life. Ya know? Hes always busy! Working and having styk figure practice and shows. Even when he doesnt have any of those things going on, the roads are bad. Seriously. The roads are never bad for a show. Not once. Hes never missed one of those. But plenty of times in the past few weeks hes been unable to see me because he cant drive with bad roads. Plus I barely even get time to talk to him. Valentines Day is coming up and Im feeling totally lonely and depressed like it might not be as great as I was hoping. I dont know how this is happening to me. I mean, I am a good girlfriend. I am. Sure, I get annoyed or jealous sometimes, Im not sure who doesnt, but thats it. He fights with me just as much as I fight with him ((when we fight, which isnt too much)). And Ive never cheated on him or done him wrong. Plus, I do all sorts of above and beyond things. Like tonight, guess what Ive been doing all night? Typing up a three page paper ((including citations)), a works cited page, an outline and a title page. All for his research paper. Plus I make him dinner and food everytime hes here. I mean, Im just saying, Im not a bad girlfriend. So why is it that I cant even talk to him or see him anymore? You know what comes next, so do I. Youre begging for a way to gracefully bow out and say goodnight. Its worse than you think. I ♥kiss♥ your eyes and thank God we're together. I just wana stay with you in the moment forever...and ever and ever.