[EDIT:] I don't think I'm supposed to fall this hard for someone I barely know. But I just can't help it. It's too much of a good thing. And WHO FUCKING KNEW THERE WERE VEGAN MARSHMELLOWS AND DIDN'T TELL ME???!!!! JEEZ-US! But idunno when i should tell my mom. i mean, i could lie, it's easy enough. but i really want to tell her. i do. i want to let her know that i'm not just a bitch and people fucking DO like me. *Not a lot but whatever.* I just wanna be accepted. Not for being someone I'm noot, but for being me. And maybe accepted isn't the right word...maybe, not judged like I'm a fucking dumbass blonde bitch. I hate having all these "secret" online friends who in real life won't say more than 2 words to me. Or maybe...maybe I'm the one who won't talk to them. Because I'm afraid of what they'll say behind my back...idunno. whatever. -------------------------------------------------- he.is.perfect. & he makes me stomach twist. & i told him. & he thinks it's hott. he called me. wanted to hang out today. i couldn't. i felt so bad. i really wanted to. this wasn't an excuse i had to make up. it was the truth for once.