So it turns out we'll probably end up putting the cat to sleep. Oh well. I guess it'd be a good thing to stop all the pain she's in. She'll never ever be her old self. She's 16. But I just know things will change for all of us without her because my dad was such a fucking asshole to her and hopefully he'll feel like shit. My parents keep getting all pissed at me for nothing. Whatever though. I talked to Lauren today & didn't confront her about the...fake friendship we have but she did tell me some other things that have led me to be even more confused, but at the same time more sure of things so I don't know whether that's good or bad. I guess it's good. My classes all went surprisingly well today. In PE we had the dreaded parking lot pe but umm...I talked to Jeff & Evan & I guess it was amusing enough. I didn't talk much though because I've learned how judgemental and rude they each can be. In english I spent most of the class up in the front writing on the board making a timeline. It was cool though because I didn't have to participate in any of the discussion part- I just wrote down important events...I don't think she hates me anymore. :) In geometry there was a talk about Teletubbies and Spongebob & gayness & like...it was all Mr. Kellogg's fault! lol. But umm I have a test tomorrow so I really should be doing my homework for that class right nowww. oh well. OMG in biology we had a quiz but I didn't study. I just sorta looked at the different phases of mitosis & then in class today she let us study a bit. But I ended up getting a 45/46 so I was quite shocked. And uhh...band...well 20 minutes was spent arguing over which songs we were gonna play because nobody liked the set list previously decided upon. So now we're playing Winds of Poseidon, Phantom of the Opera, SLEIGH RIDE!!! (YEAH SKYLAR!!!), and umm...Southern 4 (UGHHH I HATE THAT SONG) for the kiddies. It'll be ok I guess. We haven't gotten phantom yet though & that makes me very very sad! At lunch I uhh...talked to Katie for a bit but then all these people came over so I left & alice & i left. In tech lit this one guy called me mean & i was like, "yeah, that's right I am" because I really fucking hate him & i have no intention of being nice to him. So umm...I'm making a Mr.Kellogg teletubbie/y and he saw! lol. yea but it's this thing for extra credit so oooo. after school I walked home & tara called so I walked to the band room to meet her & we came to my house & haha...well umm...we've been listening to our "NOW" cds lately and it's a lot of fun acting stupid so yess...i'm glad i have someone to act stupid with! but we made a pizza...gosh, when don't we at my house? and then when it was ready we had to go to buena but i didn't see justin. :( I saw katie again though and uhh...yea. Michael and I were like fighting (I don't remember why) & i was gonna flip him like they do in all those karate movies & stuff so I was trying and somehow he changed positions and he won the fight. Oh well, there's always next time. But yea it was fun. My parents & I went to dinner @ the Harbor & I wanted to go into the hat place (to look for hats, sunglasses & take pictures- i brought the camera) but they were CLOSED! I was so devestated. But I think....even though I'm not happy about my cat at all...things will get a bit better now. BEcause I was in a good mood today for the most part. Except tomorrow is a Tuesday & Tuesdays mean I have PE. I hate that class and the people because a lot of them just fucking...are rude. but whatever- i'm not exactly th kindest person either... wow that was long...