A Year of reflection

Feeling: regretful
Wasted Sacrifice Trading life for life It all must fall It must end with us It must end with me Insinuations of what might be Fight through deprivation There will be no sleep Heed my cry Because of greed and hatred To dust we return They will see the strength in our numbers Only then will the self-righteous learn Yeah! Insinuations of what might be To the masses we mean nothing But it starts in the hearts of the few Witness the birth of a people Unite, renew There is no forever, just today (just today) Don't let your sacrifice waste away Waste away (Waste away) Through change and purity Turn the shadows to light Buried beneath the ashes Is a passion for life There is no forever, just today (just today) Don't let your, your sacrifice waste away Waste away (Waste away) Let there be no more of this bloodshed Let there be no more of this bloodshed Let there be no more of this bloodshed Heed my cry There is no forever, just today (just today) Don't let your, your sacrifice waste away Waste away (Waste away) Waste away (Waste away) So it's been quite a year so far - Let me explain (you may wanna get a brew :))

At the back end of last year, I was saying that I had a good feeling about 2006, that it was going to be the best year yet, one to remember for the rest of my life. So far, this year hasn't been far from that, but for all the wrong reasons. I'll start with the bad stuff.

So early this year (April), I lost my driving license - A complete shitter as now I have to get the bus - I made a mistake and now I'm paying the price for it. 12 month ban, 120 Hours community service and £50 fine. I think the fine was more to add insult to injury than anything else. Losing my license meant I lost my job, it's rather hard to get to preston from sabden everyday when you don't have a car.

After losing my job, I went into a bit of a downer phase - Sleeping till about 3pm, getting up, doing fuck all until about 3am, then going to sleep again. This trend continued for about 3 months. It wasn't just affecting me, it was affecting the whole family, I even started having hugh arguments with my bro (which rarely happens).

In about May time I was hospitalised by a kid 3/4 years younger than me. To cut a long story short, I got into a fight, ended up losing, having 7 stitches in my eye. Doesn't sound too bad (I'll link photo later) huh? Wrong - It got worse. The lad who bashed me decided to be a clever cunt and give me more grief for pressing charges. So he came round to my house, and smashed both mine and my brothers car windows. Something we weren't too happy about - but we knew it was him. We called the police and they did fuck all about it - as usual. Thats not the end of it - 2 weeks later he came round again, and did my mum's car over, this was turning into a joke. We called the police, again. They did fuck all about it, again. My dad started raging at them, which he's quite in his right to do so, but they had a point, unless they caught him doing it, they couldn't arrest him.

Another bad thing about this year so far is that I've had fuck all in the way of a love life. It's all gone to pot since I split up with Jo. She's still my ex?! how sad is that? (This update is for her ;)). So my love life down the pan. It doesn't help after seeing a certain picture. That not only did I break up with probably the best girl in the world, she's still THE most stunning, gorgeous, beautiful young woman I have ever seen. In a word, she's perfect, but how can u disagree? Nothing is going to change how I feel about her, especially not pictures like that! I'm thinking maybe we should have a drink sometime, but she doesn't talk to me anymore :( The occasional Hiya on msn is about it!
Now for the good bits. I got a new job!!!! After the 3 month funk of unemployment I made it back into the working world. I'm a Service Administration Consultant at a company called HML - They do out-sourcing for major mortgage companies. Part of the Skipton Building Society Group. It's a great company to work for, everyone is friendy and helpful and I've fit straight in.

We're getting a house! Yes, finally after sponging from our parents for 20 years, me and my brother have decided to get our own place - it's a pride and privacy matter more than anything - being able to stand on our own feet, instead of living with our parents. Also, we can do what we want when we want and not have anyone complain about it. So we'll be throwing a House Warming party sometime soon - I'll keep you updated.

The little cunt that bashed me in, and smashed our cars up? He's going jail - for a long time! He's currently standing trial for the following crimes:

- 1 Count of Actual Bodily Harm - 2 Counts of Arson - 3 Counts of criminal damage - 2 Counts of disturbing the peace - Numorous breaches of his ASBO.

So the little cunt is going to get it - and when this piss breath thick piece of shit gets out of jail, I'm going to find him, snatch him off the street, put a bag over his head, strip him naked, beat him to within inches of his life and leave him to rot on a moor in the middle of no-where. There is no way in hell he's getting away with it.

It's my 21st birthday a week today - I think we'll be holding a party somewhere, but I need to finalise this - I'll keep you informed. I suppose it is one thing to look forward to.

All in all, this year has started pretty shit, but brightened up along the way. It's not over yet, not by a long shot and we've still got plenty of time to make this year the best one so far! Afterall it is my 21st year on this earth! I'm still on the search for a girlie, so if ur interested, mail me ;) morfq3@gmail.com.

Thats me for now - I'll update again soon - Keep your eyes peeled! Peace! >=]
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That's sweet, But please take that picture of me down :)

And, if it's any consalation.. I'm interested :)
Picture removed :)