A Lesson Learned
This pain
in my stomach
wont go away.
I assume
this is punishment
from all
the mistakes ive made.
In a world where my actions
speak louder than words.
In a world where my actions
speak louder than words
I know more people than ever before.
One lesson ive learned from it all.
Fortune and fame are disguised as your friend
cuz im lonlier now than ive ever been.
cuz this pain in my stomach
won't go away
i assume this is punishment
for the mistakes i have made
in a world where my actions
speak louder than words
in a world where my actions
speak louder than words
I know more people than ever before.
one lesson ive learned from it all.
Fortune and fame are disguised as your friend
cuz im lonlier now than ive ever been.
I've gotten to the point at which i'm typing in random hex codes for this part of the diary. Mainly because I can't be arsed choosing a colour. So i'll stick with whatever colour this is.
The weekend, has been mixed at best. Friday night I spent at Kacy's. Everything that happened there was absoloutly fantastic. Saturday we went to Manchester, I got a few bits and bobs, and the whole day there was very good. However on the way back, I realised that I wasn't ready for another relationship yet. I thought I was, but it seems not. It took me from the point I dropped Kacy off at home after Manchester (about half 4), till about half 10, to gut up the courage to tell her.
I hate doing things like this, I'm a nice guy, and I hate hurting people. It had to be done though, I was hurting myself. Don't get me wrong, I like her a lot. I'm just not sorted in my head yet. Every second I spent with her this weekend, was sacred to me, and nothing will ever change that.
So after I'd told her that, I missioned down to veez, saw Ste down there, despite him saying he was retiring from Saturday nights. He explains all in his diary ;). He seemed a bit off with me at first, which is understandable, because I kinda stole Kacy away from him, and i'm his best mate. That is somthing I regret doing with a passion, I know I wouldn't want it to happen to me, and I know damn well i'd be pissed off if it did. Anyways, I explained what happened, and apologised again, he's said it was cool. Then we proceeded to wrestle a bit. We were copyin wrestlers entrances, seems geeky i'm sure, but it was funny at the time. Ste tried doing Rey Mysterio's entrance, but jumped too high and twatted his head on the ceiling. I sniggered to myself.
I took 2 choke slams that night, now my back is a little sore today, but it's all in the name of fun. I need to learn how to fall properly.
So today, instead of going to Leeds with my dad, I took him to do the shopping, then chilled with my mates for a bit. Went to work. Came home, and here I am.
Quite a mixed weekend. At best.
Cancer Stick time.
>=]
x
[ilickdoorknobs]
X
Then give it another go with kacy.
see, if i spend a great day with someone im not sure about, i would never
ever
have the guts to just tell them i cant do it
smoking is bad, youll get sick and be miserable, blah blah blah...
but ya awesome diary
And yeah, i know fags are bad for u, but u only live once, so fuck it.
Thanks :)