1)I'm tempted to go back to dancing because I am not making any money. 2)I want and need to get into school. Don't know what I want to do...but I need to get started. 3)I can't PAY for it or find the TIME because I only make $35/night waitressing. And that sucks. 4)I'll never get out of this house because I can't make enough to go to school, pay rent, day care, and all the shit that comes along with being out on your own again. 5)I don't want to do this fighting thing with, about, and for Jared. I'm done. Sick and tired of being sick and tired. 6)I won't be able to do anything with myself until Jared helps me raise our child. And that won't happen any time soon. 7)I wish Sam would just freakin' move back in with me so we could BOTH go to school and juggle a work schedule so I COULD afford a place and pay my 'rents to watch the baby while I work/go to school. I'm stressing. Again. And I feel like I am about to burst into tears ALL THE TIME. And it sucks. I don't want to wait on Jared to get out prison to start doing something with my life. That is just stupid. I want to move ahead and I am stuck. I feel like I have no choice but to dance again because I can't afford anything but the bare neccessities. But I DON'T want to do that. NO! NO! NO! I applied at the post office and at MMH. Hopefully that will give me something. Something that can pay enough for bills and child care. And what not. Any solutions?????? Please feel free to leave your ideas...... B