Oh no.

I'm getting back into my old habits. I want more. I can't live like this anymore. I'm doing it again. I'm antisocial. I want you all to leave me alone. I want him to stop calling. Please? I got shoes. They made me happy. Until I got home. And saw how much shit I own. I put a lot of stuff into a box so we can have a garage sale again. I would rather give away everything and start over. But not going to happen. Amanda and I got tickets to the KJEE summer round-up. I am extremely excited. Tegan + Sara, Hot Hot Heat, The Bravery, Jimmy Eat World, Rise Against, Mad Caddies. YUM. Yesterday I went to the mall with Max, Reid and Amanda. THey are the male versions of us. It's wonderful. Except they couldn't stay that long. Ugh. I'm not looking forward to: •My band audition on Wednesday •Biology Final •Geometry Final •Going to school for eight more days •Him calling more •Running out of excuses •My band audition on Wednesday (yeah I know I already said that) •Having no life this weekend. Family, band, band, band. I read Romeo+Juliet aloud to myself yesterday. At the fountain. I wrote poems yesterday. At the fountain. And then I was interrupted. So I lied about what I was doing. And stopped. Dinner.
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dont worry my darker side is comming out too. but no opium and less violence. and no cuttin. you?
well good luck on your audition and bio. but look i quit alcohol because I needed to. and i also quit opium because it wasnt healthy and i wanted to live on so i could be by my guy's side even if he doesnt like me like that. but most of all i got better because of me. but that is my reason you must find your own. i dont beleive a shrink can do that for some one. i mean no offence byemy words. and i am sorry if they do offend you. write back k