yeah he is. whatever. today i really hated myself. i haven't had a day like this, this bad, for a long time. at least a month. and today i just couldn't take it. everyone kept yelling at me. the mirror was mocking me. my mind was all over. and all i want to do is cry. really hard. and then sleep. maybe watch a sad movie. skylar's a dick. jeff needs to stop hitting on me. like seriously. ok so maybe it was cute for a little while. now it just creeps me out. a lot. matt doesn't hate me but marissa kept yelling at me and i really don't like watching them together how she gives in so easily to him and is like his puppy it's gross they should be equal but they aren't she would never stand up to him if he ever did something wrong. evan put up pictures on myspace. they weren't the best. but i left a comment anyway. cuz i'm a doll like that. [haha] the last unicorn. i'll watch that. because honestly i don't feel like staying up all night to talk to anthony. you always talk too much, too little, too late, too much, too little, too late for me to figure out i still can't figure out this summer's been so dumb. seriously. my friends are never around. the ones that i have access to see, since i can't drive and all. when my friends are around, their boyfriends come first. there's nothing to do. i have no money. my parents hate me. i'm not happy. fuuuuuck. i'm so not feelin it right now. camping. nextweekend. fun. nofighting. ori'llcry. [edit]:::::: my mother never says those words to me. ever. but she just did.