i hate this year so fucking much. it's only 2nd quarter and i already feel like i can't go on. not only school. drama. everything. i can't be friends with them anymore. matt and skylar don't want to be friends with any of them except me. but the thing is, i don't think it's healthy for me to be friends with them. i need a break. and that's what last week was supposed to be. but instead it turned into me being with him all the fucking time. i hatehatehate everybody. my only true friends that i can depend on anytime, all the time are marissa, amanda and tara. and even then, we've gone through a lot of shit. and it's like either way, i can't fucking win. I'm either a prude or a slut. they don't understand that i'm not just going to through myself at every fucking guy that comes along unlike the slut gianna and that since i haven't been in a longer-lasting relationship, i haven't done much. i hate them. and i can't stop crying. and i feel so bad for tara. and marissa. and i just wish none of this ever happened.