I'm worried about money. That awful, material, object. Meanwhile, I'm letting whats most important slip away. The love. Just me and the computer screen. The distant sound of music in the speakers, the rain pattering against the deck, the thunder rolling above my head, the smooth keys underneath my fingers, body sinking into the chair. But my heart and head are a disaster. One says, just do it, have some fun every once in a while. Take a chance. The other says, don't take the risk. Wait. Make sure you can do it and not fail. But what do we learn if we don't fail? I might meditate tonight. Maybe that will get my mind off of things.