I talked to Rae again yesterday... it started off with the most beautiful time you could have on the phone with someone you care about - and ended down right with the most frustrated. *sigh* She was talking to me and got herself some dinner cuz she hasn't been eating. I was playing...and....well I called her a pig a few times - just out of the play - and it made her feel real bad and if I would've known what trouble it would cuz, I wouldn't even have mentioned it - but she ended throwing up and feeling sick for the rest of the time. :( I feel so bad...and then for "fun" I guess - we each said something aggrivating to eachother and she said I should stop trying to control and have her live her own life. it pains me.... Danny's going on my fuckin nerves and to top everything else about that phonecall, Rae said it would depend on the situation between her and me, whether she'd let me kiss her or not. :( :( :( what a night..........