right now i'm stressing over little shit, and well some big, just got to germany and i'm looking for a place,., need to get a car, need to pass a pt test need to pass some other shit, its always one thing after another,. i just want to get out, but i dont want to be a bum, iif i get out, what am i going to do with my life., with everything going on with our world doesnt seem like anything is out there than my current job. i just want to be home with my family and friends, i hate not being there for them or them not here for me, i miss my family everyday, my family is my life. I miss the little things when the family would get together and play ball, or cook out, xmas new years fourth of july all the good stuff. bleeh, i need to find out something so i can be home, thats why i hate being home on leave, i makes me miss it so much more.,.,.,.,.,,.,,.,... and with other shit i hate chasing dreams. even her. i'm done