Well today was fun I found out more rumors. Guess what I took advantage of this guy, but I dont see how. I am so sick of ppl sticking there nose were they don’t belong. Some one I thought was my friend told one person but somehow I got all over the school and no one knows what happened but me and the other person involved. You would think that I got what I deserve but not for some reason some one thinks I deserve more. What did I ever do to you no of it didn't have anything to do with you so like really just keep it to yourself. But its like no one can do that. You know whats really funny is when ppl sit there and talk shit about someone but then when you dont have much your hanging out with the ppl you talk shit about. I've already lost what I cared about so why dont you just leave it alone. If anyone new how I felt then maybe they wouldnt be doing this to me. I just dont know who ppl could want someone to hurt so bad even if they deserve it. Ppl do things wrong its a way of life thats how you learn. I've learnt trust me I have so why are you wishing more pain on me I think I have enough. It's funny the other day I felt like hanging myself because of what I did because I hurt who I cared about, then I lost him and it hurt more but I deserved it, But then to top it all off ppl started spreading my life around when no one need to know but the ppl that were involved and they did but no everyone has to know about my life. Because all the stress i've thought of either things to get rid of it and if you want to call me a coward then sure go ahead but I rather be dead then go through this, and some days it just feels like its the only way out because it is and it scares me because I want out so bad. Yes I know I'm running away from my problems but it didn't have to go this far but it did. But im sad enough so bye.