Well things have been going ok I guess can’t really get worse then it already is right. Corey went with me to get my dress the other day it was so weird all I wanted to do was through my arms around him and start crying but I new I couldn’t. Why did I have to be so stupid? I fucked up the best thing in my life and I’m probably never going to get it back. Every day he’s all I think about from the moment I wake up well no not even that because I have nightmares about him as well so every moment I think about him. I wonder how I could do something like that to the one person that treated me like an angle and loved for who I was, I’m never going to find someone better then him he’s the best there’s no better out there well in my eyes. I love him so much and he’ll never care again. It really hurts to know what I did to him. Well at least were talking and stuff not out of school but it will get better I hope, and maybe one day I’ll get another chance oh that would be the best day of my life if it ever happened.