I'm really sick of everything lately like for one guys. They the confuse the hell out of me and they just really piss me off, I can't stand them anymore, I really can't stand anyone anymore. I'm suppose to go away with David in two weeks and I'm really happy about it I just can't wait even though its only for the weekend and I just want to leave for good but what ever and never come back that would be so great but that not going to happen for a really long time. Me and Nikki are planning on moving in April and I'm really happy about it get out of this house. Really its the only thing I'm really looking forward to. Nikki and David are the only people I can really count on and it pisses me off I feel like I don't have any other friends I'm just someone to talk to whenever you bored well you know what I say to that good fuck yourself, I'm not going to waist my time on people that really don't care, why should I they never do anything for me they just don't care why should I. I'm getting really sick of school I don't know if I really want to go back for more school next year I think I just want to find an ok job move out and move on with my life, but not here somewhere else. Some were far away were no one will be able to find me, not that anyone would try to find me. God I'm so pissed I gave my ring to some guy, just so I had a reason to see him and now it just gives him a reason to see my best friend. They say he likes me but really I think he only likes the drunken me or he only likes me when he's drunk either one I don't care but that's really what I think. If you ask me I think I should stop thinking so much and just move on and if he likes me he'll do something about it and if not well then too bad. This way I wont be sitting here all upset about something I'm not even sure of.