Have you ever felt something like... 1. ...you're always alone? Always left-out? 2. ...liking someone so much and you can never tell them how you feel? 3. ...ended up feeling regretful because he ends up having someone else better than you and not tell you about it? 4. ...no matter how many times you tell him how you feel just to bury the past, you end evading the subject and talk about something else? 5. ...empty because you can't find your ideal type and have to find someone as elite as you are? :p Hehehe. I feel like I just had to do that. You know, just to get off the additional weight on your chest. But I'm ok, really. I'm actually happy feeling single and still perfectly available and single by now. It's just that the feeling of being alone hit me just now. I never thought I would feel so fucking sad about it. Just thinking about it makes me feel like the ugliest sad sack ever to exist. I have my brother, Aaron, at least. Even though he has someone, he never fails to always lighten me up. The guy would be a hypocrite if he said he was never attracted to me from the start, which he admitted to me a few days back, but we're closer now. and I can see how protective he is of me and Russiane. And even though I'm mature as I thought as I would be, thanks for the tons of advices, thanks for just being there, which matters most to me. I love you to pieces, dude. Ü Speaking of which... you'll be turning 19 next year! Yay!!! Time for my evil plan...