oh god..the worst movie EVER is on lifetime,....this woman is bullemic and her friend patch snuck her out of rehab to got o a party where she almsot died so patch killed herself...yeah....and theyre all dressing like ballerina's, but theyre really just insulting ballerinas. theyre wearing the leg warmers and balet slippers and such..*sigh* dont claim to be a dancer if ya aint. Matt has been on my mind alot. I mean- i havent talked to him in 2 months. Does he even care about the fact that Im his friend? do i ever corss his thoughts? I know i sound selfish but i dont wanna loose touch with matt...hes such a good person and...i think i ruined EVERYTHING when i was younger...oh god i could kick myself for ever telling him that...so i have to call him but he wont pick up because hes always busy and i hope he calls me back...just..i miss him. I havent seen him all summer, i havent seen him since last AUGUST. Now its august again. I havent talked to him since june...*sigh*. i wonder if he even cares anymore...maybe i should ask Caitlyn...but shes got enough to deal with as it is. I dont think anyone realizes how hard it is to have a friendship with someone who you never talk to or shared a huge secret with when you were younger, and then BAM you hit puberty and everything just gets so friggen akward...i hate it i hate it i hate it...i mean...i dont feel that way anymore...and even though i never see or talk to him...i cant seem to let him go... to emily- i think you should make it a back to school two disc collectors edition. Thatd rock!