ugh mandrew wants me to go to his friend melissas house tonight and drink with them...but i dont wanna get drunk cuz...its dumb...but i want to...but i dont want to be this big drunk dumbass like i always am when im drunk...erg...but i dont want to seem liek this huge wimpy goodie good...and i ahvent drank forawhile...maybe ill just have a few so i dont get drunk...just buzzed...that doesnt count does it?...then i was gonna call beanie to get alcohol but i dunno...im so confuzzled...i dont want to turn into what i was before...it was totally uncool...but i miss drinking with my friends...it is fun...yet pointless....eeeerrrrrrgggg .x. deathofme .x.