fuck...ok sooo a couple days ago cassie hung herself...when i found out i almost puked...the next day alot of people were crying and shit...thenn the day after that...crystal OD's...so then shes in the fucking hospital too....the day after that...stepanies put into the hospital for her own safety...and crystals dragged outta the school by the fucking cops...after all that shit i had like a mental breakdown in school...so they called my dad...and he came to take me home and i refused to go with him...what they dont realize is all my dad would do is ground me for awhile and not let me go out...which doesnt help...at all...it just makes everything fucking worse...i need to be amongst friends and shit...but i cant do that when im not allowed to go to school...and im not allowed to go out...i still havent slept...and i still havent eaten...soon enough im going to wither away to nothing...how pleasant....fucking stupid everything...i swear "god" finds all this shit entertaining...he puts us through all this fucking cunt whore stuff because he is very amused by our emotional fucking pain...yeah "god" loves us...whatever he can fucking like my fucking clit for all i fucking care...oh and one more thing...i cant even go see cassie in the hospital because of the whole cant be within 500 yeards of her thing...as if were gonna change any fucking stories...stupid fucking cops...i hate them fucking all...maybe i can like...disappear for a couple days...til all this shit fucking blows over...*sighs*....fucking fuck... .x. deathofme .x.