i dont even know people...i feel so...narf...i dont even know why...its weird...i feel like somethings missing...but i cant figure out what...im happy...my bf joey is so awesome and i love him so much...i have an ample supply of smokes...im not not talking to anyone...im happy...but...not entirely...something is definitley missing but i dont even know...i wish i knew...but even if i figured it out there would be no way to fill it...what am i saying...i know what it is...but no way its gonna happen...not even going to specify...but goddamn everything sucks...andrew and i had this interesting conversation...and it saddened me...i cant explain what...it just doesnt matter...and i dont like the whole private thigns anymore...makes people too curious...but then again its good...i dunno...ill write it in my physical journal...where i know my thoughts are no matter what safe...yes that is what i shall do... .x. deathofme .x.