ok so sits a mutha fucka...i just wrote this huge fucking entry and it like fucked up and didnt show...basically it was me talking about how much i love my gf and how much i wish i could fix everything for her because i dont wanna lose her...and how ironic it is that i used to be in her situation and all i wanted was someone to help,understand,listen...but now its all different and i usually am good at giving advice but im completely lost on all this...i suckkkkkkkk... i love her with all my heart...i never want to lose her i honestly believe shes the one i could spend the rest of my life with...i hate how things fall together the way they do...if she dies...ill kill myself...yes ok soooo the entry before waas more organized and made perfect sense this one just thrown togetehr *shrugs*...i wish i could fix everything... .x. deathofme .x.