i cried myself to sleep...knowing ill never see you again...its finally setting in...i remember once i told you id hang myself if you killed yourself...you told me not to...you made me promise...i did...but i never knew it would be this hard to hold on if you really did kill yourself...i more than anything right now want to let go of it all and see you again...but i promised...ill never break it...dssp...i spoke to your mom...she told me theres probably not going to be a proper funeral...but whatever there is...i will go to it .x. deathofme .x.