I was doing so good. I wasn't depressed for a week! I didn't think about it. But see. That's why I have avoiding shit. You just put it behind you and not worry about it. Then something big happens. And everything comes crashing down. Not piece by piece, but all at once. And it fucking sucks. I wuna not have anything to worry about. Ever. And I wish I could just always be happy all the time without being compeltly oblivious to everything. Iduno. Fucking fuck.