so yeah, it's 7:18 in the morning. i woke up and i can't go back to sleep. & i decided to take adderall. so... i guess i'm staying awake? :/ eeeeh. fuck. so last night. yeaaaah. i went with ryan to the lakefront. it would have been fun if i got out the car but there was way too many people for me to do that. blaaaah. we were there for probably a little more than an hour then me, ryan and ben left to go to sean's. then we left to get weed & beer. (beer which i helped pay for and didn't drink any because i didn't feel like drinking anymore ...oh well). i got one hit. and i was blown. that's probably the only good thing i'm getting out of this whole not-smoking thing. then we went back to sean's and there was alot of fuckin people there. it was scary. i sat outside for a long long time tryna find someone to pick me up. couldn't. then ryan and ben came outside because ben wanted to smoke. so ben drove me and ryan to ryan's house and i got another hit on the huey p (which was kinda scary but really cool at the same time). when we got to ryan's we watched family guy and they smoked more. iduno, last night was just... iduno, it was shittyish in the begining but then iduno... it was cool. i was high, i was with ryan, who i think is fucking .....perfect and ben who is like one of the nicest people ever. it was cool. and when we were watching tv at ryan's, i realized that i'm fucking lucky.yeah, really fucking happy too. but now, i'm bored i think. so i might try to go back to sleep. or get coffee if the parentals are awake. peace&stuff