I was thinking about it today at school, and it's almost fucking Christmas already. How the fuck is time going by so fast? I mean, I'm not complaining because Ryan's coming back home in 4 weeks which is good. I haven't seen him in sooo long. After Christmas, the school year will be more than half way over already. Where the fuck is it going? It's good because I wuna get the fuck out of high school. But then I gotta go to college. And I haven't even taken the ACT yet. I wuna go to UNO but I don't know if I can even get in. I fucked around since freshman year. And after this year, thats it. Iduno what to think. Like, that's when the rest of my life starts. It's crazyyyy. And Ryan and I were talking about possibly getting steady jobs and getting an apartment together. And I mean, that'd be really fucking cool if it actually worked. And I really want it to happen. I just don't think it will. Like, I'm so scared. My parents said that once I move out, that's it. I'm on my own. They're not giving me food or money or anything at all. It's just really starting to freak me out. I basically have 6 months to figure everything out. I'm not ready for all this responsibility that comes with graduating highschool. I want to be on my own and all, just without responsibility. I mean, I'm a senior and I don't even fucking drive yet. I'm going nowhere. Blaaaaaah. This is overwhelming already. And it's not even here yet.