so so close to saying [fuck prom]. just one of those things that kinda sorta seems like a good idea at the time. but now, no. not wanting to go at all. besides, jazzfest would be WAY better. even though it ends at like, 7. still. i think i'm just looking for excuses not to go now. but i'd feel bad cuz mike's apparently all excited and looking forward to it, or something. iduno... i'm just not down with the whole dress-and-high-heel-wearing-being-around-people-from-school-while-listening-to-shitty-rap-and-getting-ready-and-taking-pictures-and-whatnot thing. blaaaaah. iduno what i'm guna do. although i'll probably be forced into going, be given the guilt trip & give in, or just feel bad and go anyway. which sucks. __another thing that sucks%&^ i think my little brother is sick again. if he is, my parents probably won't go out of town this weekend. and that is asshole. every time they're going out of town & have plans, i either get sent to chalmette to stay with my grandma at the last minute, or they change their minds at the last minute and decide not to go. duno what i'm guna do if that happens again, but it shall blow nuts. yeah, it's 12:47. i think maybe i should go to sleep. maybe. iduno, i mean, i could definetly bitch more because i still have alot more on my mind that i wuna say. but i think private entrys are way cool. okay, i'm done. peace out