it seems like lately nothing is going right. i feel like i cnat control what is oging on inside of my head or my body. i feel like everything is out of control and it scares me. i mean one min everything can be going just great and the littest thing will set me off. i dont understand. what is going on?????????????? is it my meds or what??? i mean dont get me wrong it is not jason that i am not happy with it is jsut what is going on inside of me. there is also the fact that people keep changing plans on me. ( dawn this does not include u) but like today one of my friends was supposed to go to lunch with me and then to see the new Ven Disle movie dont even know if i spelled right. well she changed her plans with out even callin me. i had been lookin forward to this all week. i know silly right. but i wanted to hang out with a friend for a change. i am home alone all day till jason gets home from work then he is to tired to go out and do anything. so yet i am still stuck at the house. oh well such is life right.