I know that i have not updated in a while but here is what is going on at the moment..... My last living grandmother is in the hospital again. she had a stroke. at this moment we dont know what is going to happen next. when she was in the hospital about 2 weeks ago... she decided that she is going to give up becasue she does not want to be a burden on us. she did not want us to have to deal with all her problems. i am jsut not ready to go through this process again. it is so hard to see my grandmother laying in that hospital bed knowing that she is suffering. if this is the way that it is going to be all i ask is that God go on ahead and take hre up to heaven. i hate seening here suffer. today when i went to vic i could not go to the hospital alone. i started crying before i even got there. so i jsut went to where my mom and brother were. we are going back later tonight and i am going to try to go in and see her. this is a very hard time for us all. in other news.... things with me and jason are great. we are doing good. i jsut wish here was here with me right now but he has to work. for me i dont knwo if i will have a job when i get back home cause i jsut started and now i had to take off. oh well if i dont i dont. no big deal. my place right now is with my family. side note.... Gred if u read this please add me to your frinds list. and goober u are there for me.