woke up at 6am to go to work. everything was going fine at first. but then we had to make room in the back of the truck for the lawn mower so i had to move some bags of cement. it was heavy so i threw it to the side and it landed on a big rock in the truck and was almost torn in half. powdered cement everywhere. i had to pick it all up by hand and put it in a bucket. now im on the boss-mans shit list. aw fuck me. so the boss-man was being a total prick after that mis-hap. he suddenly lost his pair of gloves that he lets me use, so i had to pick up the rose clippings bare handed. it hurt. alot. now my hands are all bloody. it sucks. then he made me use this lawn mower that has a HUGE hole in the bag so when i used it grass shot in my face. the rest of the day went like that basically. one bad thing from the next. anyway i really need a girlfriend. i feel so alone. i just want someone to be their for me and me to be for her. i cant sleep well anymore cause im too busy thinking at night. when i think of my friends i almost cry but i cant cause im a man. nah i just cant cry i dont know why but i feel like doing it alot of the time now.