well. shit doesnt go my way about 95% of the time. i feel sad and angry alot of the time. before it was just anger. i dont know whats wrong with me. i use to be soo happy all the time. i really shouldnt be bitching cause alot of people are happy and they have it way wrose than me. i have a roof over my head. good friends. good family. thats what its really all about. thats what lifes all about for me. if i didnt have my friends and alcohol i would seriously kill myself. i can only hope things go better in the future or i have a feeling my alcohol dependencies will get much worse