what does crestfallen mean? because if it means that every little thing is making me cry today because everything seems to be going wrong... then thats how i feel. i haven't written on here since october... thats pretty sad. i'm really confused lately. i love josh to death... but lets face the facts... sometimes guys are confusing. i just want him to be a bit more blunt sometimes. i have the Broadway Revue show tomorrow and i don't even get to go to the rehearsal before because i have to work at the bakery... i feel like a slacker... even though i'm being overworked. that doesn't seem to make sense. oh well. i put in my two weeks to the bakery, so i'll be done soon enough. i'm scared about college. i need a scholarship, and i don't have one yet. CoNfUsIoN!!!