well, as it says above i am done with this diary. if anyone knows how to delete these things, please tell me. if you don't i will just leave it. maybe my grandchildren will read it one day and me like "gosh you were the biggest loser ever" i will then throw my false teeth at them and all will be well. really glad it is offically christmas time. one of my favorite times, except for the coldness. i don't produce enough heat to survive out there for five minutes. jeez. ok so i better go learn more about assassin bugs for science project.

hehe mushy. oh jeez. anywho, this summer has been busy and boring at the same time. everything but what i want it to be. here's an update: my grandfather told me i look like martha stewart. how touching. gave my father a compliment, told him his head has a purpose at last. his baldspot can be a quick mirror for me. i am too good for this world really. went to my little cousins b-day party and she wasn't even there. she was on a limo ride, little diva-devil. been forced to watch napolean dynamite w/ my brother AGAIN today. defientally been alienated from the outside world for a long long time. feels weird. someone has been using my long-lost cell phone, so my line has been suspended adn i will get a new one in september. who uses someones cell phone? jeez people. adios

oh jeez, finally summer vacation! yay! yesterday i went to kings dominion, and my bro brought the most annoying kid on the face of the planet. cannot stand him. and ate most of my cotton candy. buttface. anywho, for fathers day, my sister comes over and my dad made a huge dinner and we get all stuffed. then we all eat ben and jerry's out of the carton. I am stalling until i have to do a ton of summer work. these people just kill me. I wonder where sarah is? i called her yesterday to be rude and invite myself over buuuut she wasn't there. oh well.

I LOVE THREE DAY WEEKENDS!!!!! but i slept the whole time. except for today. went to my friend-since-kindergarden's house b/c its her BIRTHDAY! she jumped into her pool with all her clothes on and then threw water at me, so i ended up soaked completely. good times. THREE MORE WEEKS OF SCHOOL LEFT! good golly thats exciting. yea, i know we aren't the same anymore. miss the old you sometimes. oh well. fluffy puppy bit my nose off. i might miss it. ok really sleepy...

Ok today was a nutcase! so let me update my diary here... sat we picked out a puppy, but it was too young to bring home. So next weekend byotch! YAYAYAYAY! He's a cook-a-poo (cockerspaniel and mini poodle). Not even as big as my head! Ran the friggin mile today, glad i got it over with. tho i was forced. i wanted to run two laps then get "sick". but i ran it. all. then got sweaty and disgusting! all better now. i have noooo homework so i am all bored and useless. except i had to take james for a bikeride. more sweat. funstuff. Came home today and got a note from my mom saying she cleaned my whole room and how she wanted to rearrange it all. ummm we just did that like 2 wks ago. silly goose. and she put all the puppy stuff up in my room. its bed and all! so i did what i do best and wrote her a note back. silly goose myself. well later

There is a 50% give or take that we are getting a puppy tomoro. picked a name: Guido. When my dad was selling his guitar on eBay, a guy named Guido talked to him and we really liked his name, so Guido it is. If it was a girl her name would be Lily, but i think we are getting a dude. Went to a puppy store today, sooo friggin cute! Also went mother's day shopping. got her a lucky bamboo plant that is in a SPIRAL! its soo cool! also made her a poster of our baby pictures. we were some crazy kids jeez, Master your senses, What you taste and smell, What you see, what you hear. In all things be a master of what you Do and say and think. Be free. Realize that we are not alone, that we never have been and never will be alone. Free from desire, free from possessioins, free from the dark places of the heart... rejoicing greatly in his freedom. Creating without possessing, acting without expecting, guiding without interfering

Today was goood. well i guess. Tough cookie science test, but good thing we had a sub. Sun is mom's day, thinking about what to get her. I think she likes little bamboo plants. something about good fengshui or just cute. I hate seeing him in the halls, i just freeze. don't know if it is a feeling of hate or regret or ugh or maybe not. Ok well i am reeeeeaaally tired and going now.

Feel like wearing a skirt tomoro. wish it would warm up and stop raining. didn't have to run the mile today! it was raining! YAYAYAYAYAY! so we did sit-and-reach and i somehow pulled a muscle in my neck. don't ask me how, it just happened. started reading Dante's Inferno. that is some creepy stuff! terrifies me greatly. I hope we end up ok, i am veeeery sorry i am such a pyscho freak. missed you too. ok its my bed time!

I don't know what to do. one minute you're mad, next you're happy. and i have finally seen why you were upset in the first place. guess i'm glad you're better, even when we are pissy w/ eachother, i hate to see you down. ...still confused tho. Today was good. lotta craziness. tomoro we finally get to read the balcony scene in Romeo and Juliet. Soooooooo glad we didn't have to run the mile today. thats ok i was gonna fake sick anyway. guys had to check their lockers cause people are stealing. lovely school huh?

I have nothing to apologize for. stop acting like i do. This week has been mighty odd. glad its almost over. just finished watching 10 things i hate about you. one of my favorite movies ever! I remember how things used to be, can't believe its changed so much. ok science homework time.

haven't written in a loooong time. lets see i 100% cleaned my room. yay. all clean. took me half my life jeez. except now i can't find anything. things have been uneasy here. you went right back to how you used to be. i should have known. so i went right back, fed up that you would sit there ignoring me completely. so fake i just want to vomit. i'm trying to behave. i really am this 10th grader guy in my math class made me a origamy box out of patty paper. its like tracing paper except used on hamburgers. it got crushed in my bookbag. oh well. "With tears augmenting the fresh morning's dew, adding to clouds more clouds with his deep sighs." -Shakespeare. Romeo and Juliet. feel like watching hte Lion King. i looove that movie. but i always cry Tomoro we start fitness testing in pe. juuuuust wonderful. ok my brain hurts

Ugh. today wasn't good. and i don't think i will say what is really on my mind cause its defientally not good. but grrrrr! Today= 420. no thanks. but a lot more people i know do weed than i thought. scary. popped off all my fingernails today. so friggin boring. actually not too bad they just needed to come off. what is a friend? it is a single soul dwelling in two bodies. -Aristotle miss having a person to count on.

Dear my diary, Had an interesting day. Watched Finding Nemo in spanish (buscando a nemo or something like that). It sounded sooo funny when the little turtle was talking all fast. And of course i didn't understand a word they said. Don't have much homework, that's why i am here and being bored. i miss my phone. i doubt i'll get it back anytime soon. very sad. lets hope it is in good hands. I'm excited about tomoro and i don't even know why. I got lance in my pants and its making me dance. no. seriously. god i am soooo weird. wish my b-day was soon. i need some presents. hahah jk my mommy is mia and i need her to sign my paper. i was wiping down the counter and jammed my nail against the wall and it hurt so bad. typing is now a challenge. Ok tootleS!

I have a problem here. every single one of my horoscopes say I am supposed to fall in love this month. I have always believed in my horoscope, buuuuuut they may be stretching it this time... Today was good. Actually well parts of it. Let me list all the bad parts of today: -it rained -forgot my friggin lunch! and had to bum $ off sarah (sorry!) -family life. need i say more -my science teacher is in severe need of a haircut and it bugs me but pretty much it was just a normal day.

I'm just peachy! hahaha. well yeah.... presented my monster project today that caused everyone to get less than the essential 7-8 hours of sleep. Feel like: -painting my nails -falling alseep in the sun (except it is too cold today, and too many bugs!) -watching a movie today was... interesting. got an 87.4 in humanities. good, but not up to what i expected. buuut i do have a 97.3 in math. now that's exciting. ok i don't feel like typing anymore. tootles!

watched a walk to remember, cried for half the movie but it was amazing! loved it muchly. mandy moore is my hero. got new seats in pe and sit next to this annoying guy, but he is one of the easiest ppl to talk to and i get bored easily so oh well. also doing family life. it is nothing like middle school. middle school family life was in a weird way... fun. this week has been really weird, but i survived and hope next week will be better. ok very tired and too bad i didn't update on everything taht happened so far. oh well

pathetic parents. very immature. let her live her own life, your harsh words behind her back mean nothing. you mean nothing selfish brats. Well, today was Easter, didn't do anything religious besides eat a chocolate bunny... how horrible am i? Wow, i haven't been online in a while. soooo lets see. i went to KD last sun w/ Mom and Dad. sooooo much fun. scared the bejeezus outta me. Then this past week was very busy lotta lotta crappy work. that's ok i survived enough to go to KD tomoro! Really hope it doesn't rain tomoro esp thunderstorm. but prolly will oh well. we'll just have to wing it. It sounds like it is gonna be a huge family reunion at KD. a total of 13 people. gonna be soooooo much fun. crazy crazy. ummm well thats all for now.

Today was interesting. First woke up to the house being cleaned til it twinkled. then my grandparents came over with their monster dog that has more energy than.... something with a lot of energy. got jumped on a lot. dog-tackled. slobbered. then my sister came over with 2 super loaded bags of clothes for me. most of it was a blur, ate food, played with dog, tried on clothes. then after ages of old people chitchat, my g'parents went on their way. then my sister, my mom and I had an odd sudden desire to get our nails done. so then we drove around and found a nice place and got our fake nails. now we all purrty. Dad wants to go to Kings Dominion tomoro. i reeeeeeaaaaaaaally wanna go, but i have STUPID english project i gotta work on. poop, oh well i got all next weekend and week. SPRING BREAK BABY!!!! ok now i must leave. ttfn

oh my god. this week was horrible, for the most part. woke up monday morning at 5:30 with the worst feeling in my stomach. thru up and slept ever since. finally got what my family had, just a few days later. It has been nice staying home all this time. just me and my thoughts. had a lot to think about. still don't know what i think anymore, tho. oh well. ugh i don't know if i am ready to go back to school. lotta work to make up and projects and test and poopie stuff. Could NOT believe that was the season finale of Committed!!!! ooooooh it was good. i'll miss it very much. i am confused, like usual, but i don't know how this will end. i want everything to be like it was before when all was well, could that happen? i'm sorry

first off, i am happy for you. i think its wonderful. but that isn't the problem. its your attitude. i have tried to get used to it, i can't. so now we fight and don't even seem like the friends i thought we were. believe me, i have tried to keep us friends. how about all those times i tried to walk with you in the halls and you totally ignored me and then look at me as if you didn't want me there. you walk the other way and i try to get over it. oh and how about randomly forgetting about me? we have met there everyday for the past six months, you can't just forget something like that. i hate your lies. i would listen if you were actually there. everytime you are around you just look around and barely talk, unless some one else is there. but most of the time you're not. i barely see you anymore. to you there is always someone better to be with i hate how you think i am so wrong when it can't be just me. i'm sorry you think i am leaving you, but when you stop changing into this person i don't know and turn back into the person i love, then maybe it will be ok. and i would like to apologize for the bitch i have been. i know i have been immature. but i hate what this has become. this isn't us.... is it?