God i wish i could buy peace, achieving it is impossible. if my parents could stop w/ the freakish obsession of the "scary snow" then all would be much better. i can't wait til i move out of here. yea, life would be more difficult, but i would be able to have more control over my own life. instead of my parents trying to force me to live it the way they want. Oh well. just praying we dont have school tomorrow. i don't know why i don't want it. life is better when i am there. oh yea i remember, the truck load of work! Today i crocheted a scarf, but i ended up being only half the size i wanted due to lack of yarn. Thats how most things turn out, half of what i need. but still beautiful in its own way. I wish i could get out of this house. grrrr! everyone is in a weird mood. and i mean EVERYONE. friends, family, guinea pigs. does it ever stop? I think dreams are the most amazing thing in the world. but after a day has gone by you never remember them. and it is lost forever. and it happens everyday. except sometimes i don't remember them when i wake up. its all just a blur. a lost dream is a mind blur. how amazing is that? i wish i could read minds. i can never tell if my english teacher hates me or not. she will like stare at me w/ this weird face, then act all nice. shes a mystery to me. all teachers are a mystery to me. you have to be extremely odd to want to stay in one tiny classroom w/ strange kids all day. trying to "mold their minds" psh yea rite. ok my fingers need a nap.