I have the worst internal conflics this world has ever seen. i need help very muchly. i would never take it, even if it was offered. me and my stupid self. today was a day of sorrow and misery. 2 things that are the most important things in my life have been taken away from me. actually one may be temporarily misplaced and it will come back someday and the world will be one again. maybe there is a reason, but these are the things i will never know. today was one of those days when i wished i was beautiful. wish i had different hair, skinnier, just perfect but not. hate just being me. always changing, never the same opinion about something twice. its very difficult to be me. oh well. tomoro is president's day. love to all ya'll out there! and thank you for making it a no-school day! woot woot! today i realized my father has separation anxiety. only took me 14 yrs. how thick am i? it rubbed off onto me and now i realize why i freak everyone out. god ugh. The day you slipped away/was the day i found/it won't be the same