Writing is a lot easier when you love your beautlful diary. i would just like to apologize to you. i figured why i am being so miserable to you and myself. i hate that you are living the freshman dream, and you left me here suffering all alone. do i even know you any more? i don't know how you feel anymore but i will tell you this is killing me. today was ummm... interesting. my science teacher was like depressed and i felt really bad for him. and he says uranus funny just so we don't laugh at him. poor guy. played handball today in pe. just kill me now. i hate any physical activity, but espcially that. too many rules to remember. watched mulan rouge (i don't know how to spell it!) at first it was the dorkiest movie ever. all singing and crap. then she died in his arms and i cried. so did a bunch of us sissy girls. the ending was the only thing that made it a good movie. came home and for some strange reason decided to play w/ guinea pig outside in the lovely weather. he liked it a lot, then went spazzy for no reason and played run away from lisa until i could finally catch him. guinea pig satisfaction rating: 32% i love my diary! just makes me feel good! why did i have it looking like a pumpkin? oh well have so many projects to do. its impossible. oh well. i'll survive. to bad today went by so fast. it was like 70 and tomorrow is supposed to rain and get cold like 40 agian. ugh. today reminded me of summer. the freedom and joy. ok well i gotta go sleep. night night!