Did it mean anything? i don't think so. That's what always happens. Everytime. i am so stupid for falling for it AGAIN. Today was a tragic day. one of hermitage's beloved seniors, Randi, died yesterday, so everyone was crying today. god it was horrible and i can't stop thinking about it. i wonder how many times she thought about her prom. or even her wedding. but she never got to see those days. just because of a tree. I wonder if i disappeared off the face of the earth, would anyone care that much? if not, oh well. i'll be dead and far away from here. I feel like i am falling behind. this is just not my week. school is killing me. but i might survive. maybe.